Bii,
We had go through almost every thicks and thin in these 365 days
Every joy and happiness that we went through is a gift to us
While every sadness we breakthrough, is a reminder to us
But no matter what came to us, I held your hand as tight as possible
Because I will not let go of you easily
As at the moment I decided to hold your hand, that’s the moment I took an oath
It is now my responsibility to take good care of you, provide you with joy and laughter, having me by your side when u needed me and promise to love you forever.
The past is the past,
What happened there,just stayed there.
What matters now is present and the future.
Thank you for everything that u did for me,
No matter what happened, I still have you
I'm glad that I have you actually.
You're always there whenever I need you
You're the best gift ever.
I Love You,
"Love you once,love u still"
"Always have,and always will"
Happy First Anniversary
1/11/10
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
couldn't leave you~
recently during midnight when i'm studying..
i'll keep thinking where should proceed to if i wanna further my studies
i have alot of choices,but
it's the matter of whether i can graduate or not only..
if i can graduate,den it's the best and good news to me and everyone..
i can sure that i wont continue my studies at tarc anymore as adv.diploma it's too tough for me..
so i will be choosing utar..
at the moment,i wasn't sure whether utar at sg.long branch still offer the degree course that i wanted to enrol..
and some said they moved that programme to utar kampar which is very far..
i survey it and found utar kampar is quite a nice place..it's far from the city,kind of village place..
i personally like that place..
but suddenly,i think of her..
if i really went there and study..
we will have very less time to meet..
i will be very very miss her..
the only thing that i couldn't let go is her,my lpz..
i'll keep thinking where should proceed to if i wanna further my studies
i have alot of choices,but
it's the matter of whether i can graduate or not only..
if i can graduate,den it's the best and good news to me and everyone..
i can sure that i wont continue my studies at tarc anymore as adv.diploma it's too tough for me..
so i will be choosing utar..
at the moment,i wasn't sure whether utar at sg.long branch still offer the degree course that i wanted to enrol..
and some said they moved that programme to utar kampar which is very far..
i survey it and found utar kampar is quite a nice place..it's far from the city,kind of village place..
i personally like that place..
but suddenly,i think of her..
if i really went there and study..
we will have very less time to meet..
i will be very very miss her..
the only thing that i couldn't let go is her,my lpz..
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
happy to have you :)
it's been very long i haven write any long essays,
so do blogging..
i didn't know how to start..
out of sudden,
i feel that i'm new for this thing..
it's just like the first day i started to blog..
wrote the title,
start with simple introducing,
and then rub it all off and close the blog..
but then, i realise that if i easily gave up,
i will never ever finish what i started..
so i will try my best to finish it...
as always,
week 14,
everyone are preparing,
stressing,
studying,
and i can sure dying as well..
for a perfect student,this is nothing..
for moderate student, just study..
for poor student, fuck it..
im at the poor student category..
completely hopeless..
i could hardly imagine to go through it..
i know im in deep trouble,real deep..
but,whatever happens on me..
there's still someone who will still care about me..
and that someone meant alot to me..
she sacrifice alot for me..
including her time to study..
studies are important to her..
but she could sacrifice it,
just because i send her a message..
saying that i miss her very much,
and i'll glad if she could spend some time to lunch with me today..
this morning when i woke up,she message me and said she reached my house
im happy to see her, i tot she couldn't make it..
but she make it because of me..
i love her..
she's the best i have..
i promise myself..
no matter how hopeless,how disappointing,how hard the road im going..
i will go through it,as long as u stay by my side..
i don't need a pretty girl to be my gf,
i don't care whether she is rich or not,
i don't care what those filthy bitches and bastards said..
all i wanted is u,
who treat me with your true heart..
and i will give what u gave..
thank you for staying by my side for so long,
and sorry for whatever thing that i make u sad,
no matter what changes happen on me,
my heart will still be same..
love u lpz..
so do blogging..
i didn't know how to start..
out of sudden,
i feel that i'm new for this thing..
it's just like the first day i started to blog..
wrote the title,
start with simple introducing,
and then rub it all off and close the blog..
but then, i realise that if i easily gave up,
i will never ever finish what i started..
so i will try my best to finish it...
as always,
week 14,
everyone are preparing,
stressing,
studying,
and i can sure dying as well..
for a perfect student,this is nothing..
for moderate student, just study..
for poor student, fuck it..
im at the poor student category..
completely hopeless..
i could hardly imagine to go through it..
i know im in deep trouble,real deep..
but,whatever happens on me..
there's still someone who will still care about me..
and that someone meant alot to me..
she sacrifice alot for me..
including her time to study..
studies are important to her..
but she could sacrifice it,
just because i send her a message..
saying that i miss her very much,
and i'll glad if she could spend some time to lunch with me today..
this morning when i woke up,she message me and said she reached my house
im happy to see her, i tot she couldn't make it..
but she make it because of me..
i love her..
she's the best i have..
i promise myself..
no matter how hopeless,how disappointing,how hard the road im going..
i will go through it,as long as u stay by my side..
i don't need a pretty girl to be my gf,
i don't care whether she is rich or not,
i don't care what those filthy bitches and bastards said..
all i wanted is u,
who treat me with your true heart..
and i will give what u gave..
thank you for staying by my side for so long,
and sorry for whatever thing that i make u sad,
no matter what changes happen on me,
my heart will still be same..
love u lpz..
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
to my dear and dearest~
there's a quote saying that
"behind every successful guy,there's a girl" ,
some may agree,but some may not..
and i'm the one who agree about it.
i'm now having the final semester for my diploma,
i couldn't afford for any fail anymore..
not even 1 subject..
if really fail even one subject *touch wood* , i might not graduate on time..
my mom,dad,brother,myself and my dearest darling do worry about it..
none except for my darling that try her best to assist me in my studies..
to say the truth,i will taking alot of papers this semester..
chances to pass all the paper is low..but still,there's a hope..
if only i could wake up now and start everything now..
my darling,she's worrying day and night..
revising all the subjects that i'll be taking this semester,
to teach me so that i wouldn't fail again,
she started to nag me,
giving me homework,
asking me to sleep early,
stop me from lazying..
but im a person who does not really like to be nag..
she knows it,but she still nagging me..
she doesn't care if im mad of her or what,
because all she do is for my own good..
she could stand for it,
she wouldn't mind if i didn't appreciate it.
i think i really shud start waking up,
i shud start everything now,
it's never too late for me..
i still can make the change..
i really shud start doing something so that they won't worry me too much..
i must appreciate my darling very much..
i realise that she's the only one that really stay by my side to support me whenever im in trouble..
she do all she could to help me,
she's really my angel =')
JASON POH! wake up now!
there's no time for u to loose..
stop making everyone around u to worry u..
u're a grown man..
it's time for u to be independent!
to my darling :
bii, promise u too work hard for this coming 3 months..
i wouldn't disappoint u..
i won't waste ur effort..
i always know u nag me for my own good..
thank you bii..
love u always..♥
"behind every successful guy,there's a girl" ,
some may agree,but some may not..
and i'm the one who agree about it.
i'm now having the final semester for my diploma,
i couldn't afford for any fail anymore..
not even 1 subject..
if really fail even one subject *touch wood* , i might not graduate on time..
my mom,dad,brother,myself and my dearest darling do worry about it..
none except for my darling that try her best to assist me in my studies..
to say the truth,i will taking alot of papers this semester..
chances to pass all the paper is low..but still,there's a hope..
if only i could wake up now and start everything now..
my darling,she's worrying day and night..
revising all the subjects that i'll be taking this semester,
to teach me so that i wouldn't fail again,
she started to nag me,
giving me homework,
asking me to sleep early,
stop me from lazying..
but im a person who does not really like to be nag..
she knows it,but she still nagging me..
she doesn't care if im mad of her or what,
because all she do is for my own good..
she could stand for it,
she wouldn't mind if i didn't appreciate it.
i think i really shud start waking up,
i shud start everything now,
it's never too late for me..
i still can make the change..
i really shud start doing something so that they won't worry me too much..
i must appreciate my darling very much..
i realise that she's the only one that really stay by my side to support me whenever im in trouble..
she do all she could to help me,
she's really my angel =')
JASON POH! wake up now!
there's no time for u to loose..
stop making everyone around u to worry u..
u're a grown man..
it's time for u to be independent!
to my darling :
bii, promise u too work hard for this coming 3 months..
i wouldn't disappoint u..
i won't waste ur effort..
i always know u nag me for my own good..
thank you bii..
love u always..♥
Friday, April 8, 2011
jason - life as a zombie and vampire
hey there, it's been a long since my last update..
well,if u can see my previous update..it's during the time when im having my 2nd semester exam,
this time,this hour,now..it's when im having the 3rd semester exam..
well,i dunno why everytime when im stuggling with my studies..
i will start blogging..
to say the truth,im having a real high stress level with me on my back..
and it's friggin heavy..
i may say that my stress level is higher among all my friends and classmate recently..
because most of them have no resits paper to be taken this semester..
all they have is just 2 main papers to sit before..
at this time,
they finished their first paper and they are currently studying for their last paper..
while me,i finished my first paper
and im studying for 4 more upcoming papers..
and there's no much gap between this 4 papers..
so to be simplify on what im talking now, im really in deep shit right now
although im in deep shit, but i cant stop studying..i must continue..
suffering in the short term might brings sweetness in the longer term...
so now, my daily life changed..
i sleep in the noon and night..and i study from midnight to morning..
it's been a long time i never sit together and dinner with my family..
i've not been social much with them..
i wan back my life,i hate studying seriously..
but my life wasnt too bad at all for now,
i have a special someone who been always accompany me all the time..
she support me very much..
she very sek me..
she teach me to study,
she purposely come all the way from her house to have lunch with me..
and she help me massage everytime when i need it the most..
thanks to my baby girl...<3
well,if u can see my previous update..it's during the time when im having my 2nd semester exam,
this time,this hour,now..it's when im having the 3rd semester exam..
well,i dunno why everytime when im stuggling with my studies..
i will start blogging..
to say the truth,im having a real high stress level with me on my back..
and it's friggin heavy..
i may say that my stress level is higher among all my friends and classmate recently..
because most of them have no resits paper to be taken this semester..
all they have is just 2 main papers to sit before..
at this time,
they finished their first paper and they are currently studying for their last paper..
while me,i finished my first paper
and im studying for 4 more upcoming papers..
and there's no much gap between this 4 papers..
so to be simplify on what im talking now, im really in deep shit right now
although im in deep shit, but i cant stop studying..i must continue..
suffering in the short term might brings sweetness in the longer term...
so now, my daily life changed..
i sleep in the noon and night..and i study from midnight to morning..
it's been a long time i never sit together and dinner with my family..
i've not been social much with them..
i wan back my life,i hate studying seriously..
but my life wasnt too bad at all for now,
i have a special someone who been always accompany me all the time..
she support me very much..
she very sek me..
she teach me to study,
she purposely come all the way from her house to have lunch with me..
and she help me massage everytime when i need it the most..
thanks to my baby girl...<3
Friday, January 7, 2011
paper wars
hi,im jason..and im sure that im abnormal now..i've never been normal before actually..
it's now 5.50am..it's friday morning today..
everyone loves it...
school kids,
workers,
as they can enjoy their weekends..
but,there are also people who is suffering..
which is tarcian from all over the branches in malaysia..
wat are they actually suffering from?
something that is even worse than sickness..
which is,
final examination..
everyone hates it,
no one will ever like it..
studying for final is very suffering,
especially u study with no guidance,
and u study blindly without understanding it..
as u are getting more nervous,the more u forget wat u have learned..
that's the sickness that incur by everyone i guess..
it's now 5.50am..it's friday morning today..
everyone loves it...
school kids,
workers,
as they can enjoy their weekends..
but,there are also people who is suffering..
which is tarcian from all over the branches in malaysia..
wat are they actually suffering from?
something that is even worse than sickness..
which is,
final examination..
everyone hates it,
no one will ever like it..
studying for final is very suffering,
especially u study with no guidance,
and u study blindly without understanding it..
as u are getting more nervous,the more u forget wat u have learned..
that's the sickness that incur by everyone i guess..
Sunday, December 12, 2010
12th December 2010 - back for a moment
it's been a month since my last post..
been busying with college courseworks thingy..
assignments,mid-term test and etc..
finally,it's all over..
i have a few days of rest before i start to prepare for the upcoming final exams which is 3 weeks away from now..
i barely can survive the mid-term test..
how bout my final exam den?
im real dead this time if im still on my last minute work..
but then,for now..i must relax as much as possible..
probably for 3 more days maybe..
as the coming days will be very harsh for me..
i can ensure that i will have sleepless night, swinging moods,and loss of appetite..
and that will lead me to be loss of weight as well..
im freaking thin already,and yet i will be even thinner this time..
nevermind,im already used to it...not the 1st time either..
i thought that i will have more to share on my blog this time..
but actually nothing much to share..
im afraid to bored the readers if i share bout my daily activities..
guess i'll just keep it myself..
well...that's all that i could share...
see ya,peeps... :)
been busying with college courseworks thingy..
assignments,mid-term test and etc..
finally,it's all over..
i have a few days of rest before i start to prepare for the upcoming final exams which is 3 weeks away from now..
i barely can survive the mid-term test..
how bout my final exam den?
im real dead this time if im still on my last minute work..
but then,for now..i must relax as much as possible..
probably for 3 more days maybe..
as the coming days will be very harsh for me..
i can ensure that i will have sleepless night, swinging moods,and loss of appetite..
and that will lead me to be loss of weight as well..
im freaking thin already,and yet i will be even thinner this time..
nevermind,im already used to it...not the 1st time either..
i thought that i will have more to share on my blog this time..
but actually nothing much to share..
im afraid to bored the readers if i share bout my daily activities..
guess i'll just keep it myself..
well...that's all that i could share...
see ya,peeps... :)
Friday, November 12, 2010
12th November - spend it or save it?
i've got some but not much cash in my hand now..
although i've been thinking to save it,
but my minds keep planning how to spend it..
i've think of alot of ways to spend it which is
buy new handphones,
learn dj-ing,
shop it all,
or maybe,
spend it with my love one..<3
but,
doing all these,
will just burn my cash in 3 months time...
so,i've thinking of way to "invest" it..
not the way that invest to earn interest or something..
is that invest on some things that can be learn...
some,sort of art,skills and maybe things that can help in future career?
so,the best investment that can be made is by invest on something that is in my field and interest...
being a DJ,
is wat i always dream for..
i wanna put my hands on the equipments so badly..
but,i really need to think in more detail and deep consideration about tis..
although i've been thinking to save it,
but my minds keep planning how to spend it..
i've think of alot of ways to spend it which is
buy new handphones,
learn dj-ing,
shop it all,
or maybe,
spend it with my love one..<3
but,
doing all these,
will just burn my cash in 3 months time...
so,i've thinking of way to "invest" it..
not the way that invest to earn interest or something..
is that invest on some things that can be learn...
some,sort of art,skills and maybe things that can help in future career?
so,the best investment that can be made is by invest on something that is in my field and interest...
being a DJ,
is wat i always dream for..
i wanna put my hands on the equipments so badly..
but,i really need to think in more detail and deep consideration about tis..
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
13th October - struggling for nothing
last week, i get to know my results for my exam..
i may looked calm and no worries a day before that..
but im actually very worried..
i didn't take my nap during the noon and play badminton during the night..
trying to make myself tired and try not to think about it..
that night,i get to sleep early..
first thing early in the morning,i went to college an hour earlier..
as there were transportation problem,i went out earlier..
went to library and saw few peoples checking their results..
and some of them even scream at the library..
i watched their happy faces,at the same time im worrying myself as well..
i think of checking my results after my class..
but i've decided to check it earlier...
once i see my result,i just couldn't accept it..
i thought that it was just a dream,and i wish to wake up quickly..
as it's really a nightmare..but then,i found that im in the reality...
the nightmares is hunting me down again..
my result is really unacceptable,it's the worst result i ever had in my life..
everyone do have limit in whatever thing they do..no matter in terms of smart and stupidity..
i do have my limit of stupidity,but this result im having..is really beyond my limit..
i couldn't react,speak nor eat right after i see that result..
it's almost the same result that im having last year..terrible..
but i manage to bring it up my result last year during my semester 2 examination..but it's really difficult to do so..
now,i have to do it all over again..much more effort to put in now..
i can't afford for another result like tis again..
i always thought that my result is improving all these time..
but now it seems like im still me..i wont improve after all..
alot of my friends also unsatisfied with their results..
i wish i can comfort them,but i cant...im not better than them..
right after that day,i felt that i no longer have interest to continue my studies..
i really do put alot of effort on this time exam..months of sleepless night..
ended up with bullshit alphabets..
i always thought that..as long as i do try my best and hardworking,then i might get good results..but now i seriously doubt it..
im really struggling right now..to achieve something that is unachievable..
i just wished that i could back to the past..
the past that i mean wasn't just back to few years ago,
but the past i mean is that right before i was borned..
i wish to stop my parents from bringing me to this world..
i may looked calm and no worries a day before that..
but im actually very worried..
i didn't take my nap during the noon and play badminton during the night..
trying to make myself tired and try not to think about it..
that night,i get to sleep early..
first thing early in the morning,i went to college an hour earlier..
as there were transportation problem,i went out earlier..
went to library and saw few peoples checking their results..
and some of them even scream at the library..
i watched their happy faces,at the same time im worrying myself as well..
i think of checking my results after my class..
but i've decided to check it earlier...
once i see my result,i just couldn't accept it..
i thought that it was just a dream,and i wish to wake up quickly..
as it's really a nightmare..but then,i found that im in the reality...
the nightmares is hunting me down again..
my result is really unacceptable,it's the worst result i ever had in my life..
everyone do have limit in whatever thing they do..no matter in terms of smart and stupidity..
i do have my limit of stupidity,but this result im having..is really beyond my limit..
i couldn't react,speak nor eat right after i see that result..
it's almost the same result that im having last year..terrible..
but i manage to bring it up my result last year during my semester 2 examination..but it's really difficult to do so..
now,i have to do it all over again..much more effort to put in now..
i can't afford for another result like tis again..
i always thought that my result is improving all these time..
but now it seems like im still me..i wont improve after all..
alot of my friends also unsatisfied with their results..
i wish i can comfort them,but i cant...im not better than them..
right after that day,i felt that i no longer have interest to continue my studies..
i really do put alot of effort on this time exam..months of sleepless night..
ended up with bullshit alphabets..
i always thought that..as long as i do try my best and hardworking,then i might get good results..but now i seriously doubt it..
im really struggling right now..to achieve something that is unachievable..
i just wished that i could back to the past..
the past that i mean wasn't just back to few years ago,
but the past i mean is that right before i was borned..
i wish to stop my parents from bringing me to this world..
Friday, September 17, 2010
17th September 2010 - the breaks
it has already been 3 weeks and almost 4 i didnt have internet connection. Ever since im having my final exam,i've been disconnected from the world of internet. There is no facebook,msn and blog for me for quite a long time. Till now,im still disconnected. It's now the semester break and it's my time to relax. Unfortunately, im already bored with it since the 2nd day of the semester break. But there's nothing forever in life. I knew that god wouldn't let me bored for the semester break.
Not just long ago,i've been to penang trip with bunch of college mates. It was our 1st and successful outing since we've been mates for a year. We've been planning tis trip right before the final exam starts. During our final exam,we do talk about the schedule for the penang trip and that makes some of us quite excited and couldn't concentrate on our papers that we're having =D
While we're on penang, we're totally getting ourselves crazy there. We consist of a group of 12 members including me. Imagine tat amount of people walked together down the streets of penang and beautiful beach of batu feringgi. Not just that,we even conquered half of a bus. We make tonnes of noises and havoc happens everywhere wherever we are. We joke around,gossip around and we're absolutely blast with laughters everytime. Everything happens smoothly while we're at there. No problem at all. Accomodation is not a problem to us,sleeping in a room with another 11 people is definitely not a problem =D.
After the penang trip,right after i landed on the city of KL,there's another plan for me. Been planning for clubbing with bunch of friends that night. That night was fun as that's the place where i release the final part of my stress. Been drinking alot,but not much that night. But still,didnt get drunk..i guess i really can hold my liquor..=P
But,ever since that night..there's not much plan for me..been watching for alot of old dramas and movies for all these time. Few days ago, i finally could online using my phone. Im now even blogging with handphones. I love my handphone =P
That's all i could blog,bye~
Not just long ago,i've been to penang trip with bunch of college mates. It was our 1st and successful outing since we've been mates for a year. We've been planning tis trip right before the final exam starts. During our final exam,we do talk about the schedule for the penang trip and that makes some of us quite excited and couldn't concentrate on our papers that we're having =D
While we're on penang, we're totally getting ourselves crazy there. We consist of a group of 12 members including me. Imagine tat amount of people walked together down the streets of penang and beautiful beach of batu feringgi. Not just that,we even conquered half of a bus. We make tonnes of noises and havoc happens everywhere wherever we are. We joke around,gossip around and we're absolutely blast with laughters everytime. Everything happens smoothly while we're at there. No problem at all. Accomodation is not a problem to us,sleeping in a room with another 11 people is definitely not a problem =D.
After the penang trip,right after i landed on the city of KL,there's another plan for me. Been planning for clubbing with bunch of friends that night. That night was fun as that's the place where i release the final part of my stress. Been drinking alot,but not much that night. But still,didnt get drunk..i guess i really can hold my liquor..=P
But,ever since that night..there's not much plan for me..been watching for alot of old dramas and movies for all these time. Few days ago, i finally could online using my phone. Im now even blogging with handphones. I love my handphone =P
That's all i could blog,bye~
Monday, August 23, 2010
23rd August - 36 hours still counting
yea,broke the record..
havent sleep for 36 hours..
tat's me when it's final exam..
think u know me well?
think again..
im friggin tired..
my head is heavy,
full of formulae,
words,
definition,
figures,
and so on...
i don't have much time to think of others right now..
is time for me to being selfish for once..
please think of me...
wan fuck me or wat,
go ahead...
but fuck me after i release all the burden,
if u fuck me at these time,
u will be fucked back upside down...
sorry to say..
peace! ._.v
im now studying,
more concentration this time..
had kopi o ice when im drinking with my frens juz now,
but i guess, that doesnt help alot..
after back from drinking,
bath for a very long time,
sitting down under the shower,
bathing is the only time i can really think..
besides,i've view several pictures of my bro frens that is studying in UK,
i envy them,
they started to travel around the world,
and after their final exam ends,
there are going on an europe trip..
i seriously do envy them..
especially watching them stepping on the green field and clear blue sky of Scotland,
i do wish to visit those places also,
not say that i would't have the chance to do so,
i do have the chance,
but i must work harder,
not in the point of working harder to earn money to go that places,
the point im talking about is studying hard and grab the opportunity to study abroad..
i seriously do hope everything goes well for me at Tarc..
so that i can study abroad with my college mates at UK
and together we travel around the world,
that's my target,
it's not impossible,but hard to achieve..
so,here am i..
studying hard to achieve it..
listen to the chinese songs,
and doing revision of the PYQ,
that's my style of study,
at the past,
it's been a long time i didn't tune up to the chinese song,
till today...
i didnt sleep for 36 hours and more,
and it's still counting..
tick tock tick tock....
blogged too much recently,
izit because im too emo?
or maybe a better words to say,
i have alot of problems to be share?
well,who cares..
i die,my problem...
havent sleep for 36 hours..
tat's me when it's final exam..
think u know me well?
think again..
im friggin tired..
my head is heavy,
full of formulae,
words,
definition,
figures,
and so on...
i don't have much time to think of others right now..
is time for me to being selfish for once..
please think of me...
wan fuck me or wat,
go ahead...
but fuck me after i release all the burden,
if u fuck me at these time,
u will be fucked back upside down...
sorry to say..
peace! ._.v
im now studying,
more concentration this time..
had kopi o ice when im drinking with my frens juz now,
but i guess, that doesnt help alot..
after back from drinking,
bath for a very long time,
sitting down under the shower,
bathing is the only time i can really think..
besides,i've view several pictures of my bro frens that is studying in UK,
i envy them,
they started to travel around the world,
and after their final exam ends,
there are going on an europe trip..
i seriously do envy them..
especially watching them stepping on the green field and clear blue sky of Scotland,
i do wish to visit those places also,
not say that i would't have the chance to do so,
i do have the chance,
but i must work harder,
not in the point of working harder to earn money to go that places,
the point im talking about is studying hard and grab the opportunity to study abroad..
i seriously do hope everything goes well for me at Tarc..
so that i can study abroad with my college mates at UK
and together we travel around the world,
that's my target,
it's not impossible,but hard to achieve..
so,here am i..
studying hard to achieve it..
listen to the chinese songs,
and doing revision of the PYQ,
that's my style of study,
at the past,
it's been a long time i didn't tune up to the chinese song,
till today...
i didnt sleep for 36 hours and more,
and it's still counting..
tick tock tick tock....
blogged too much recently,
izit because im too emo?
or maybe a better words to say,
i have alot of problems to be share?
well,who cares..
i die,my problem...
Sunday, August 22, 2010
22th August - demi-zombie?
it's my first time to blog early in the morning..
it's already not my 1st time to be around at tis time,
i've been doing this for a week,
staying up late at night,
till the morning..
if im lucky,i can sleep from morning till the noon..
if im not lucky,i can stay awake for at least 36 hours..
if im in between, i can sleep for at least 2 hours..
that's me for the past 1 week..=D
today,im slightly different..
i thought that i can sleep till today morning,
but i can just sleep for 1 and half hour only..
slept at 5,and woke up at 630...wtf-ed..
i have a huge eye bag..
and im walking like a zombie..
doesn't have appetite to eat,
but i feel thirsty everytime..
i guess im losing my weight again...=/
another 3 more days will be the beginning of final exam..
everyone are stressing,so do i...
was hoping to slower down the time so that i can have more time to study,
and hoping the time passes faster,so that the exam ends quickly..
it's already not my 1st time to be around at tis time,
i've been doing this for a week,
staying up late at night,
till the morning..
if im lucky,i can sleep from morning till the noon..
if im not lucky,i can stay awake for at least 36 hours..
if im in between, i can sleep for at least 2 hours..
that's me for the past 1 week..=D
today,im slightly different..
i thought that i can sleep till today morning,
but i can just sleep for 1 and half hour only..
slept at 5,and woke up at 630...wtf-ed..
i have a huge eye bag..
and im walking like a zombie..
doesn't have appetite to eat,
but i feel thirsty everytime..
i guess im losing my weight again...=/
another 3 more days will be the beginning of final exam..
everyone are stressing,so do i...
was hoping to slower down the time so that i can have more time to study,
and hoping the time passes faster,so that the exam ends quickly..
Thursday, August 19, 2010
19th August - inception?
while i'm studying
out of sudden,i reminded that i promised someone to write bout wat i dreamt yesterday
i can say that,it's my 1st time to have such dream...
i have such dream,is maybe because of im too tired recently..
ok,i'll try to write something out...as not everyone will fully memorize the dream they had before..
unless they often dream about it..
while i was sleeping yesterday,
i had a dream that it's set at a classroom of my secondary school
in the dream,im at the pendidikan moral class..
not much student around...
but at the time,i was sleeping peacefully at the classroom
i still remember i sat at the front row,
while teacher doesnt really pay attention at me, i continue sleep peacefully..
as im sleeping that time(inside the dream), i had a dream inside that dream..
tat means i entered the 2nd stage of the dream..
inside the 2nd stage dream, i wasnt too clear wat is going on...
but all i really remember is,
im sitting at the exam hall..
i looked around..
students were answering the question,
while the teacher is patrolling..
i looked at the exam paper,
and im in total blank...
suddenly,i woke up and im back to the 1st stage of dream..
and at the 1st stage of dream,im finding someone at the classroom..
while im finding for that someone,i felt strange..
as the person that im looking for is a friend from college,
and im still at the secondary school..
that means,i was looking for someone that i doesnt know at all...
den,i woke up...and im at the reality world...LOL!
messy dream,wtf is that...==
out of sudden,i reminded that i promised someone to write bout wat i dreamt yesterday
i can say that,it's my 1st time to have such dream...
i have such dream,is maybe because of im too tired recently..
ok,i'll try to write something out...as not everyone will fully memorize the dream they had before..
unless they often dream about it..
while i was sleeping yesterday,
i had a dream that it's set at a classroom of my secondary school
in the dream,im at the pendidikan moral class..
not much student around...
but at the time,i was sleeping peacefully at the classroom
i still remember i sat at the front row,
while teacher doesnt really pay attention at me, i continue sleep peacefully..
as im sleeping that time(inside the dream), i had a dream inside that dream..
tat means i entered the 2nd stage of the dream..
inside the 2nd stage dream, i wasnt too clear wat is going on...
but all i really remember is,
im sitting at the exam hall..
i looked around..
students were answering the question,
while the teacher is patrolling..
i looked at the exam paper,
and im in total blank...
suddenly,i woke up and im back to the 1st stage of dream..
and at the 1st stage of dream,im finding someone at the classroom..
while im finding for that someone,i felt strange..
as the person that im looking for is a friend from college,
and im still at the secondary school..
that means,i was looking for someone that i doesnt know at all...
den,i woke up...and im at the reality world...LOL!
messy dream,wtf is that...==
Monday, August 16, 2010
16th August - wake up!
this will be my last weekends to play/sleep/dreaming/relax..
i gotta serious with my studies already..
the final exam is just few days away,
i still have time to study for it..
i must get serious with it..
no more jokes,
no more fooling around,
and putting all my efforts in my studies..
im not sure whether i can do it,
but all i know is i MUST do it,
i must NOT fail...
i won't fail myself again,never!
is time to get crazy again with the notes and books,
there is no more day and night for me,
my life will be very messy for following 2 weeks...
let's see wat can i do,
and of course,wish me luck please...
i dun wanna die in my room..
not with my notes..
i gotta serious with my studies already..
the final exam is just few days away,
i still have time to study for it..
i must get serious with it..
no more jokes,
no more fooling around,
and putting all my efforts in my studies..
im not sure whether i can do it,
but all i know is i MUST do it,
i must NOT fail...
i won't fail myself again,never!
is time to get crazy again with the notes and books,
there is no more day and night for me,
my life will be very messy for following 2 weeks...
let's see wat can i do,
and of course,wish me luck please...
i dun wanna die in my room..
not with my notes..
Saturday, August 14, 2010
14th August - do it or leave it...
i started to have sleepless night ever since i know that i have to repeat a subject on this semester,
i wouldn't say im too sad nor happy,
as i know i would fail,
and i let myself to think in another point of view,
it wasn't a very bad news for me anyway,
as the exam timetable is very packed,
barely have a chance to breathe,
since i dun have to sit for a subject in the final exam,
that makes me have more time to study for other subjects,
that's the advantage,while the disadvantage of repeating a subject is
i have to pay more,much more..
i have to work hard for next year at this time..
i really don't understand myself,
why would i fall?
as i already started to get up and fight...
what's wrong with me?
izit i have to fall many times,in order for me to get better results?
im at a very high risk now,i must do better already...
no more mistakes,i cant afford to fall anymore..
it's not fun,
to have sleepless night,
to do things different from others,
and to be looked down...
I SERIOUSLY DO NOT LIKE!
and seriously....
i really do not like accounting at all,
i've been seeking for programme supervisor from every department,
i asked if there's anything they can do for me...
but it's too late...im already in the half way..
i have to continue,i cant stop...
if i stop,i'll be wasting my 1 year time..
i dun have much time with me,
no matter what,i have to continue...
at least i must get my diploma..
den,i will re-plan whether i should continue or just stop there..
im actually torturing myself,
studying things that i dun like,
doing things that i do not wish to,
and just follow the flow...
*big sigh*
why am i such a big failure?
oh my gawd....
im tired,
very tired,
when will my nightmare ends?
i wouldn't say im too sad nor happy,
as i know i would fail,
and i let myself to think in another point of view,
it wasn't a very bad news for me anyway,
as the exam timetable is very packed,
barely have a chance to breathe,
since i dun have to sit for a subject in the final exam,
that makes me have more time to study for other subjects,
that's the advantage,while the disadvantage of repeating a subject is
i have to pay more,much more..
i have to work hard for next year at this time..
i really don't understand myself,
why would i fall?
as i already started to get up and fight...
what's wrong with me?
izit i have to fall many times,in order for me to get better results?
im at a very high risk now,i must do better already...
no more mistakes,i cant afford to fall anymore..
it's not fun,
to have sleepless night,
to do things different from others,
and to be looked down...
I SERIOUSLY DO NOT LIKE!
and seriously....
i really do not like accounting at all,
i've been seeking for programme supervisor from every department,
i asked if there's anything they can do for me...
but it's too late...im already in the half way..
i have to continue,i cant stop...
if i stop,i'll be wasting my 1 year time..
i dun have much time with me,
no matter what,i have to continue...
at least i must get my diploma..
den,i will re-plan whether i should continue or just stop there..
im actually torturing myself,
studying things that i dun like,
doing things that i do not wish to,
and just follow the flow...
*big sigh*
why am i such a big failure?
oh my gawd....
im tired,
very tired,
when will my nightmare ends?
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
3rd August - hoping
i've been worrying something for few weeks,
it's about my studies...
there's 3 subjects that i've been worry...
among the 3....1 passed
im still working on the another 1,as i still can make it pass,
while there's another is already past,and there is high possibility that i can fail that...
there's nothing much to do with that 1...
all i can do is,pray, pray and pray...
hoping that there's a miracle happen...
although it's quite impossible..
i wish that i could pass the paper,
and i promise i will do better in my final,
was not hoping to get high marks,
but at least,let me pass the paper...
i really do afraid...
i dun wan this kind of life anymore...
worrying sick of something..
it's really suffering..
i can do better!
i can change!
hoping for another chance...
it's about my studies...
there's 3 subjects that i've been worry...
among the 3....1 passed
im still working on the another 1,as i still can make it pass,
while there's another is already past,and there is high possibility that i can fail that...
there's nothing much to do with that 1...
all i can do is,pray, pray and pray...
hoping that there's a miracle happen...
although it's quite impossible..
i wish that i could pass the paper,
and i promise i will do better in my final,
was not hoping to get high marks,
but at least,let me pass the paper...
i really do afraid...
i dun wan this kind of life anymore...
worrying sick of something..
it's really suffering..
i can do better!
i can change!
hoping for another chance...
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