27th July - Starry night

i should be studying right now instead of blogging,
there's an important test 2moro,
it's like a matter of live and death for me..
im taking like,an hour of break already..
i gotta continue study soon,
till the next morning and straight away to class..
i've just drank a can of coffee that i bought not long ago..
not sure if it works,i hope it do..
actually,im not feeling well for about a week already..
during weekends,i rest alot and have no time to study..
that makes me last minute work again..
i sick at the wrong time..
although i rest alot,it's still the same...
if there's no any test on 2moro,i'll probably sleep like nobody's business right now..
in fact,i do have test...and it's important..
sleep,i can sleep anytime...
but if i do terribly on this test,i'll be as good as dead..
my shoulder is very heavy...
in terms of neck stiffness,
and also burden...
im carrying a very big burden on me for a very long time...
im very tired,i havent properly have a peace of mind for the past 5 or 6 weeks..
although it's all gonna end soon,but still on the way..
out of sudden,i missed the starry night...
it's been very long time since the last time i saw it...
shiny and bright full moon,
that makes the sky clear and bright,
together with the sky that full of stars..
the silence of the street,
the windy night,
makes me feel like im the only one that lives in the earth..
i wish i could have chance to see it again..
sooner or later perhaps?

24th July - concentration

im very very disappointed with myself for what i did for this whole semester
it was not cool at all
i will drag myself to a very deep shit if it continues
i must stop all these
i can stop it,
it wasnt too late after all,
i still can change something,
but all i need is start to work hard,
i need concentration,
all i need is concentration,
it's my last chance,
it's time for me to get serious,
im very very regret to be fooling around,
god,please......
i wish nothing from YOU
all i need is just concentration....

17th July - Disappointment

im facing alot of troubles at college,
and everything that happens,
is actually full of disappointment,
im really disappointed with my life,
whatever happens,it happens exactly the same,
there's no surprise for me in my life,
and that makes my life predictable,
not just my life,im disappointed with myself also,
i thought i can do better,but it never happens,
i never concentrate on what im doing,
many people said that im changed,but..
in fact,i didnt...im still the same
i wish i changed,i wish to start all over again
im sick with my life,i do not wish to continue it..
but i must...
i shouldnt be so selfish,i must think of others as well
im running out of time,i must start to do something before it's too late..
but,how am i gonna start? where should i begin?
i wish that there's someone always be there for me when i needed help..
lead me, guide me, care me, and understand me..

11th July - Investment

recently,there's something that keep buzzing my mind..
it's about investment...
but,it's not about the investment that u all might be thinking..
it does not involve the matter of profits or so watever..
it's an investment about talent..
i've thinking it for some quite of time..
im not sure whether this investment does works or not..
i've thinking of learning something new and special which i really obsessed with it..
before tis,i do think of it before..
but im facing some financial issues on that time..
so,i couldnt walk the talk by that time..
now,since i can handle my financial properly..
i felt that it's time for me to walk the talk instead of talk the talk..
but,support is all i need...
these investment needs big amount of money,
although im fine with it,but my parents wouldn't think so..
they are somehow,old fashioned...
i could rarely discuss with them..
wat can i do is,
waiting for a proper time and try to persuade them...=/

26th June - Breathless

it's week 6 of the college life..
it's the beginning of the miserable life..
everything started to rush by..
courseworks, assignment , test , presentation...
continuously for 5 weeks..
i could bear the stress,
i could bear the tiredness,
i could bear everything,
but not the blame..
im already very tired,
please do understand me..
im also human,
i have feelings as well..
im really really really tired..
the college thing is really killing me already..
please leave me alone...
i couldnt hold it any longer...
i really need to concentrate more on my studies..
i dun wanna fail,after all i've been go through...
i realise what is more important to me...
i dun wanna see disappointment in my parent's face..
i dun wanna be mocked anymore...
i know i can do better,but it's all depends on how i take it..

18th June - Toy story 3 =)

today my class started at 8am,unfortunately..im late for class again today...
i couldnt sleep well that night...ended up in waking up 830am and quickly rush to college..
i reached college at 9am and of coz,i late for an hour...i was really embarassed at the moment when im walking in to my seats at the classsroom..everyone is looking at me,and of coz...everyone did laugh and said that "what time already?"...
i quickly get into my seats and im glad that my tutor doesnt mad at me..=D
my tutor did joke with me as well...he asked me izit the reason im late is all bcoz i watch football last night? i laugh and replied no...den,i was asked to do a simple question....i have no idea how to do seriously...and i tell teacher that it's impossible....but since the tutor said it's easy,i do as he requested...of coz not with my capabilities,from the help of my babi fren of coz :P
the class ended shortly after that,i sat in the class for less than 30 minutes only...hehe

*skip some unnecessary part*


i bought 4 tickets to watch Toy Story 3 with my friends which is Vickie,Lisa and Jess...
it was the 1st time for lisa and jess to meet vickie...during half way of my lecture,lisa called me and said tat she cant enter the college without the id...so,i went out and fetch them in to the college and dump them at canteen 2 to let them visit the college..and i proceed straight back to the lecture..my lecture was supposed to end at 230pm but i left early bcoz i bought the tickets at 230pm...we didnt go far,we only went to Wangsa Walk Mall to watch it...at first,i thought that i wouldnt enjoy the movie much as the cinema was full with malays,not even a single chinese other than we 4...but,it's opposite...in the end,i enjoyed the movie very very much...thank god they know how to laugh! the movie was much more funnier compare to Toy Story 1 and 2....Toy Story 3 is seriously different from the reviews from the newspaper and etc...it's totally much more funnier,much more dramatic,much more story line,and much more emotional...i seriously gonna cry in the ending part,it's seriously very touching....the reason why i'm touched is because,maybe i understand how does the character feel like...
we're all grown kids,and we're adults now...everyone do have their childish moment....sometimes,i even laugh at my ownself for wat i did during the past...
tis movie seriously worth to watch...funny and touching as well...i'll rate it 9.5/10...

12th June

pembaca sekalian, =D
hi...it's 447am in Malaysia,and it's around 6.50am Saturday in Australia...
tat si babi Ms.V already go to trip at Australia for 4 days already...
dunno tat stupid having fun at there or not...
and most importantly..dunno she will remember to bring souvenir back or not :P
she went to Australia on wednesday..tat means she absent the class for 2 days,exlude the lecture..
and i wanna tell her that,i still can so happy without her in the class la...hahahahaha...=P
paiseh la,din reply ur message on the day tat u depart...u know why i didnt reply? it's bcoz the time is 4am something edi,u expect me to reply ar? dream on la si babi.. :P
ok,dun wan talk about tat babi edi..
let's talk about Ms.PV
she's going to Redang Island today,later i guess....
so good le they all..can go for a trip...
i expect some souvenir from Ms.PV oso...
but i dun hope much,even some sand from Redang is enough i guess..
nothing much to say,buai