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Saturday, October 30, 2010
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
13th October - struggling for nothing
last week, i get to know my results for my exam..
i may looked calm and no worries a day before that..
but im actually very worried..
i didn't take my nap during the noon and play badminton during the night..
trying to make myself tired and try not to think about it..
that night,i get to sleep early..
first thing early in the morning,i went to college an hour earlier..
as there were transportation problem,i went out earlier..
went to library and saw few peoples checking their results..
and some of them even scream at the library..
i watched their happy faces,at the same time im worrying myself as well..
i think of checking my results after my class..
but i've decided to check it earlier...
once i see my result,i just couldn't accept it..
i thought that it was just a dream,and i wish to wake up quickly..
as it's really a nightmare..but then,i found that im in the reality...
the nightmares is hunting me down again..
my result is really unacceptable,it's the worst result i ever had in my life..
everyone do have limit in whatever thing they do..no matter in terms of smart and stupidity..
i do have my limit of stupidity,but this result im having..is really beyond my limit..
i couldn't react,speak nor eat right after i see that result..
it's almost the same result that im having last year..terrible..
but i manage to bring it up my result last year during my semester 2 examination..but it's really difficult to do so..
now,i have to do it all over again..much more effort to put in now..
i can't afford for another result like tis again..
i always thought that my result is improving all these time..
but now it seems like im still me..i wont improve after all..
alot of my friends also unsatisfied with their results..
i wish i can comfort them,but i cant...im not better than them..
right after that day,i felt that i no longer have interest to continue my studies..
i really do put alot of effort on this time exam..months of sleepless night..
ended up with bullshit alphabets..
i always thought that..as long as i do try my best and hardworking,then i might get good results..but now i seriously doubt it..
im really struggling right now..to achieve something that is unachievable..
i just wished that i could back to the past..
the past that i mean wasn't just back to few years ago,
but the past i mean is that right before i was borned..
i wish to stop my parents from bringing me to this world..
i may looked calm and no worries a day before that..
but im actually very worried..
i didn't take my nap during the noon and play badminton during the night..
trying to make myself tired and try not to think about it..
that night,i get to sleep early..
first thing early in the morning,i went to college an hour earlier..
as there were transportation problem,i went out earlier..
went to library and saw few peoples checking their results..
and some of them even scream at the library..
i watched their happy faces,at the same time im worrying myself as well..
i think of checking my results after my class..
but i've decided to check it earlier...
once i see my result,i just couldn't accept it..
i thought that it was just a dream,and i wish to wake up quickly..
as it's really a nightmare..but then,i found that im in the reality...
the nightmares is hunting me down again..
my result is really unacceptable,it's the worst result i ever had in my life..
everyone do have limit in whatever thing they do..no matter in terms of smart and stupidity..
i do have my limit of stupidity,but this result im having..is really beyond my limit..
i couldn't react,speak nor eat right after i see that result..
it's almost the same result that im having last year..terrible..
but i manage to bring it up my result last year during my semester 2 examination..but it's really difficult to do so..
now,i have to do it all over again..much more effort to put in now..
i can't afford for another result like tis again..
i always thought that my result is improving all these time..
but now it seems like im still me..i wont improve after all..
alot of my friends also unsatisfied with their results..
i wish i can comfort them,but i cant...im not better than them..
right after that day,i felt that i no longer have interest to continue my studies..
i really do put alot of effort on this time exam..months of sleepless night..
ended up with bullshit alphabets..
i always thought that..as long as i do try my best and hardworking,then i might get good results..but now i seriously doubt it..
im really struggling right now..to achieve something that is unachievable..
i just wished that i could back to the past..
the past that i mean wasn't just back to few years ago,
but the past i mean is that right before i was borned..
i wish to stop my parents from bringing me to this world..
Friday, September 17, 2010
17th September 2010 - the breaks
it has already been 3 weeks and almost 4 i didnt have internet connection. Ever since im having my final exam,i've been disconnected from the world of internet. There is no facebook,msn and blog for me for quite a long time. Till now,im still disconnected. It's now the semester break and it's my time to relax. Unfortunately, im already bored with it since the 2nd day of the semester break. But there's nothing forever in life. I knew that god wouldn't let me bored for the semester break.
Not just long ago,i've been to penang trip with bunch of college mates. It was our 1st and successful outing since we've been mates for a year. We've been planning tis trip right before the final exam starts. During our final exam,we do talk about the schedule for the penang trip and that makes some of us quite excited and couldn't concentrate on our papers that we're having =D
While we're on penang, we're totally getting ourselves crazy there. We consist of a group of 12 members including me. Imagine tat amount of people walked together down the streets of penang and beautiful beach of batu feringgi. Not just that,we even conquered half of a bus. We make tonnes of noises and havoc happens everywhere wherever we are. We joke around,gossip around and we're absolutely blast with laughters everytime. Everything happens smoothly while we're at there. No problem at all. Accomodation is not a problem to us,sleeping in a room with another 11 people is definitely not a problem =D.
After the penang trip,right after i landed on the city of KL,there's another plan for me. Been planning for clubbing with bunch of friends that night. That night was fun as that's the place where i release the final part of my stress. Been drinking alot,but not much that night. But still,didnt get drunk..i guess i really can hold my liquor..=P
But,ever since that night..there's not much plan for me..been watching for alot of old dramas and movies for all these time. Few days ago, i finally could online using my phone. Im now even blogging with handphones. I love my handphone =P
That's all i could blog,bye~
Not just long ago,i've been to penang trip with bunch of college mates. It was our 1st and successful outing since we've been mates for a year. We've been planning tis trip right before the final exam starts. During our final exam,we do talk about the schedule for the penang trip and that makes some of us quite excited and couldn't concentrate on our papers that we're having =D
While we're on penang, we're totally getting ourselves crazy there. We consist of a group of 12 members including me. Imagine tat amount of people walked together down the streets of penang and beautiful beach of batu feringgi. Not just that,we even conquered half of a bus. We make tonnes of noises and havoc happens everywhere wherever we are. We joke around,gossip around and we're absolutely blast with laughters everytime. Everything happens smoothly while we're at there. No problem at all. Accomodation is not a problem to us,sleeping in a room with another 11 people is definitely not a problem =D.
After the penang trip,right after i landed on the city of KL,there's another plan for me. Been planning for clubbing with bunch of friends that night. That night was fun as that's the place where i release the final part of my stress. Been drinking alot,but not much that night. But still,didnt get drunk..i guess i really can hold my liquor..=P
But,ever since that night..there's not much plan for me..been watching for alot of old dramas and movies for all these time. Few days ago, i finally could online using my phone. Im now even blogging with handphones. I love my handphone =P
That's all i could blog,bye~
Monday, August 23, 2010
23rd August - 36 hours still counting
yea,broke the record..
havent sleep for 36 hours..
tat's me when it's final exam..
think u know me well?
think again..
im friggin tired..
my head is heavy,
full of formulae,
words,
definition,
figures,
and so on...
i don't have much time to think of others right now..
is time for me to being selfish for once..
please think of me...
wan fuck me or wat,
go ahead...
but fuck me after i release all the burden,
if u fuck me at these time,
u will be fucked back upside down...
sorry to say..
peace! ._.v
im now studying,
more concentration this time..
had kopi o ice when im drinking with my frens juz now,
but i guess, that doesnt help alot..
after back from drinking,
bath for a very long time,
sitting down under the shower,
bathing is the only time i can really think..
besides,i've view several pictures of my bro frens that is studying in UK,
i envy them,
they started to travel around the world,
and after their final exam ends,
there are going on an europe trip..
i seriously do envy them..
especially watching them stepping on the green field and clear blue sky of Scotland,
i do wish to visit those places also,
not say that i would't have the chance to do so,
i do have the chance,
but i must work harder,
not in the point of working harder to earn money to go that places,
the point im talking about is studying hard and grab the opportunity to study abroad..
i seriously do hope everything goes well for me at Tarc..
so that i can study abroad with my college mates at UK
and together we travel around the world,
that's my target,
it's not impossible,but hard to achieve..
so,here am i..
studying hard to achieve it..
listen to the chinese songs,
and doing revision of the PYQ,
that's my style of study,
at the past,
it's been a long time i didn't tune up to the chinese song,
till today...
i didnt sleep for 36 hours and more,
and it's still counting..
tick tock tick tock....
blogged too much recently,
izit because im too emo?
or maybe a better words to say,
i have alot of problems to be share?
well,who cares..
i die,my problem...
havent sleep for 36 hours..
tat's me when it's final exam..
think u know me well?
think again..
im friggin tired..
my head is heavy,
full of formulae,
words,
definition,
figures,
and so on...
i don't have much time to think of others right now..
is time for me to being selfish for once..
please think of me...
wan fuck me or wat,
go ahead...
but fuck me after i release all the burden,
if u fuck me at these time,
u will be fucked back upside down...
sorry to say..
peace! ._.v
im now studying,
more concentration this time..
had kopi o ice when im drinking with my frens juz now,
but i guess, that doesnt help alot..
after back from drinking,
bath for a very long time,
sitting down under the shower,
bathing is the only time i can really think..
besides,i've view several pictures of my bro frens that is studying in UK,
i envy them,
they started to travel around the world,
and after their final exam ends,
there are going on an europe trip..
i seriously do envy them..
especially watching them stepping on the green field and clear blue sky of Scotland,
i do wish to visit those places also,
not say that i would't have the chance to do so,
i do have the chance,
but i must work harder,
not in the point of working harder to earn money to go that places,
the point im talking about is studying hard and grab the opportunity to study abroad..
i seriously do hope everything goes well for me at Tarc..
so that i can study abroad with my college mates at UK
and together we travel around the world,
that's my target,
it's not impossible,but hard to achieve..
so,here am i..
studying hard to achieve it..
listen to the chinese songs,
and doing revision of the PYQ,
that's my style of study,
at the past,
it's been a long time i didn't tune up to the chinese song,
till today...
i didnt sleep for 36 hours and more,
and it's still counting..
tick tock tick tock....
blogged too much recently,
izit because im too emo?
or maybe a better words to say,
i have alot of problems to be share?
well,who cares..
i die,my problem...
Sunday, August 22, 2010
22th August - demi-zombie?
it's my first time to blog early in the morning..
it's already not my 1st time to be around at tis time,
i've been doing this for a week,
staying up late at night,
till the morning..
if im lucky,i can sleep from morning till the noon..
if im not lucky,i can stay awake for at least 36 hours..
if im in between, i can sleep for at least 2 hours..
that's me for the past 1 week..=D
today,im slightly different..
i thought that i can sleep till today morning,
but i can just sleep for 1 and half hour only..
slept at 5,and woke up at 630...wtf-ed..
i have a huge eye bag..
and im walking like a zombie..
doesn't have appetite to eat,
but i feel thirsty everytime..
i guess im losing my weight again...=/
another 3 more days will be the beginning of final exam..
everyone are stressing,so do i...
was hoping to slower down the time so that i can have more time to study,
and hoping the time passes faster,so that the exam ends quickly..
it's already not my 1st time to be around at tis time,
i've been doing this for a week,
staying up late at night,
till the morning..
if im lucky,i can sleep from morning till the noon..
if im not lucky,i can stay awake for at least 36 hours..
if im in between, i can sleep for at least 2 hours..
that's me for the past 1 week..=D
today,im slightly different..
i thought that i can sleep till today morning,
but i can just sleep for 1 and half hour only..
slept at 5,and woke up at 630...wtf-ed..
i have a huge eye bag..
and im walking like a zombie..
doesn't have appetite to eat,
but i feel thirsty everytime..
i guess im losing my weight again...=/
another 3 more days will be the beginning of final exam..
everyone are stressing,so do i...
was hoping to slower down the time so that i can have more time to study,
and hoping the time passes faster,so that the exam ends quickly..
Thursday, August 19, 2010
19th August - inception?
while i'm studying
out of sudden,i reminded that i promised someone to write bout wat i dreamt yesterday
i can say that,it's my 1st time to have such dream...
i have such dream,is maybe because of im too tired recently..
ok,i'll try to write something out...as not everyone will fully memorize the dream they had before..
unless they often dream about it..
while i was sleeping yesterday,
i had a dream that it's set at a classroom of my secondary school
in the dream,im at the pendidikan moral class..
not much student around...
but at the time,i was sleeping peacefully at the classroom
i still remember i sat at the front row,
while teacher doesnt really pay attention at me, i continue sleep peacefully..
as im sleeping that time(inside the dream), i had a dream inside that dream..
tat means i entered the 2nd stage of the dream..
inside the 2nd stage dream, i wasnt too clear wat is going on...
but all i really remember is,
im sitting at the exam hall..
i looked around..
students were answering the question,
while the teacher is patrolling..
i looked at the exam paper,
and im in total blank...
suddenly,i woke up and im back to the 1st stage of dream..
and at the 1st stage of dream,im finding someone at the classroom..
while im finding for that someone,i felt strange..
as the person that im looking for is a friend from college,
and im still at the secondary school..
that means,i was looking for someone that i doesnt know at all...
den,i woke up...and im at the reality world...LOL!
messy dream,wtf is that...==
out of sudden,i reminded that i promised someone to write bout wat i dreamt yesterday
i can say that,it's my 1st time to have such dream...
i have such dream,is maybe because of im too tired recently..
ok,i'll try to write something out...as not everyone will fully memorize the dream they had before..
unless they often dream about it..
while i was sleeping yesterday,
i had a dream that it's set at a classroom of my secondary school
in the dream,im at the pendidikan moral class..
not much student around...
but at the time,i was sleeping peacefully at the classroom
i still remember i sat at the front row,
while teacher doesnt really pay attention at me, i continue sleep peacefully..
as im sleeping that time(inside the dream), i had a dream inside that dream..
tat means i entered the 2nd stage of the dream..
inside the 2nd stage dream, i wasnt too clear wat is going on...
but all i really remember is,
im sitting at the exam hall..
i looked around..
students were answering the question,
while the teacher is patrolling..
i looked at the exam paper,
and im in total blank...
suddenly,i woke up and im back to the 1st stage of dream..
and at the 1st stage of dream,im finding someone at the classroom..
while im finding for that someone,i felt strange..
as the person that im looking for is a friend from college,
and im still at the secondary school..
that means,i was looking for someone that i doesnt know at all...
den,i woke up...and im at the reality world...LOL!
messy dream,wtf is that...==
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